Sunday, June 7, 2009

On to Heaven

Elyse has been on my mind a lot as of late. I have an 8 x 10 photo of Elyse on my desk which I brought back from her memorial service. Since that day, the frame has been leaning against the side wall behind some books. A few days ago, I picked up the frame, cleaned it and set it down next to my monitor so that she is directly facing me now. As much as I painfully miss her still, I suppose I am doing better emotionally with moving forward with my life. I am sure that this is what Elyse would want for her mom also. As I stare into those precious innocent eyes, I am gently reminded of the privilege of carrying her and raising her until she was called back to her eternal home in heaven. Elyse's passing has definitely piqued my curiosity and longing for heaven. As I watch Faith and Erin play, laugh and go through their terrible two's, I wonder how Elyse spends each day in heaven. I'm sure that her days are filled with love, joy and peace incomprehensible to me as I still need to fulfill my purpose for being here. There is a young woman by the name of Rachel who, I believe, is fulfilling her purpose everyday as she is dying of cancer. On her website, www.deathisnotdying.com, her video and letters boldly proclaims her mission in life in the midst of terminal cancer. I am so humbled by her determination to "finish well," according to her words.