Sunday, May 25, 2008

another round of colds

Some of you may know Faith and Erin were hit with another round of colds - sneezing, coughing, wheezing, fever...the whole nine yards. Probably the worst cold to date for both. This meant sleepless nights for mom and dad. As much as I wash my hands and theirs, use hand sanitizers and such, I can't seem to prevent those icky viruses from invading our household. Of course, keeping germs away completely is almost impossible. So what do I do? I'll have to just come to terms with the fact that getting sick is just part of growing up for the little ones. I suppose this is how they build their immune system. I read in the American Academy of Pediatrics' Caring For Your Baby And Young Child that babies will typically get sick with a common cold 8-10 times before turning 2.

Monday, May 19, 2008

Our Friend Kayti

A few entries back, I wrote about our dear friend Kayti who was preparing to undergo surgery to remove a tumor from her spine. Well, I've been receiving regular updates on her progress and she is doing well. She'll continue her physical therapy at home after she's discharged tomorrow. Kayti is a fighter so I'm sure her endurance will carry her through this difficult time of recovery. But most of all, the Lord will be her strength and hope to push ahead. Please remember Kayti in your prayers. Thank you everyone.

Monday, May 12, 2008

Mother's Day

As much as I try to block out certain memories of Elyse sometimes just to keep my sanity, there will always be one reminder after another. Mother's Day is one of those reminders because Elyse was in the hospital right around this time one year ago. She was only a tiny 3-month-old baby diagnosed with a rare blood disorder. Her prognosis was uncertain. We didn't know if she would live or die. I lost my voice from a cold and was exhausted. Mother's Day was the last thing on my mind but Shannon, my sister-in-law, was thoughtful enough to bring me a Mother's Day gift to the hospital. Looking back, I was so grateful for the blessing to be mom to Elyse, Faith and Erin. After all, I yearned to become a mom for years. Thank you, Shannon.

Tuesday, May 6, 2008

Remembering Elyse once more

I took the girls to the soft play area at the mall today before lunch hoping to work up their appetite. The girls have been a bit finicky lately....more on that later. So the girls were playing and this little girl walks up to Faith and is just so affectionate. It's really just heartwarming to see kids so innocently trying to communicate with each other - reaching out to hug and touch their faces. She seemed to be close in age to our girls. The mom came over and we started to talk. She asked me if I was Elyse's mom. She read about Elyse in the Koream Journal and forwarded our story to everyone she knew. I was humbled by her kindness and compassion. Sharing how I am doing lately was kind of therapeutic. I felt a sense of release. Perhaps this is what I need to do more often. Thank you Anne !

Monday, May 5, 2008

A trip to the park

The morning hours almost always go by pretty quickly but the late afternoon hours sometimes can drag on. So I took the girls to the park today around 4pm. We were there yesterday too. The park is walking distance but it's on top of a hill so we drove. Faith was busy walking and exploring the playground. Erin did not let go of my hand and wanted to be walked everywhere. Faith prefers the slide. Erin loves the swing. They truly are so different.

Faith is quite the social butterfly. She waves "hi" to most people she sees but especially to other kids. We met a mom with two boys- one was 8 months old and his brother was 2 1/2. Faith waved to the boys and the mom took notice. The mom asked me a familiar question, "Are they twins?". I just said "yes" but I told her that they're fraternal. She had a very easy-going sensibility about her so I felt comfortable telling her about Elyse. I told her that they're actually triplets and I lost Elyse at 8 months old. I went on to tell her a little bit about Elyse's journey...our journey. Talking about Elyse even with a complete stranger made my heart sink. A sort of dull ache I always feel inside intensified with every spoken word about Elyse. She mentioned that I seem to be handling the situation very well. I told her that I have my moments....some days are harder to get through than others. I'm not sure if I could have kept my voice steady and not choke up if I had this conversation even a few months ago. So I think I am doing better today than 7 months ago. Everyday I continue to live but always with Elyse on my mind. I miss her.